The other day, I called my coach, telling him that I could not wake up early these days. So he said to me that he's not that calculative and it is fine if I want to have a break from my weekly routine.
'It's life, Aini. Sometimes there are times when we are too busy and there are times when we kinda like have all the time in the world. You just have to go through with it and then get back to your old routine.'
But to be honest, at time like this, I'm lost in my thought. So I end up not doing things that I should be doing.
Yes, I'm studying things to understand the world. I'm learning policy, philosophy, ethics and their relation to science and technology. I'm spending most of my time to learn these ...but without knowing, slowly I've lost my soul too.
I keep telling myself, if this is not for the hereafter, all of this are nothing.
But I seriously think that I'm slowly detaching from my life and my family.
I used to hate those who are soo deep into their study and become nerd and have less human value, but I think my nightmare comes true...
I've become one of them.
Dear Allah, please show me the way.
2 komen:
inilah apa yg org kata 'kejayaan takkan dtg bergolek', ada 'harga' yg perlu dibayar utk sesuatu perkara besar yg kita nak.
semakin besar benda yg kita nak, semakin byk yg terkorban...
nak2 lagi, kita manusia byk hak yg kena tunaikan, utk Tuhan, famili, kawan, diri sendiri.
yg penting, kita tahu apa prioriti, buat yg terbaik, tunaikan hak semua dan doa semoga setiap saat, setiap dilema, yg kita hadapi masa nak capai impian tu Allah balas semuanya.
Semoga Allah beri kekuatan
p/s: Sori la panjang pulak menyibuk kat sini hehehehe
~bukan ustazah, bukan pilihan~
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